I lost my mum three years ago in a few months to lung cancer, she had it for a fews months then passed in her sleep which was a huge shock to me, i never expected her to die. I dont have any other family except my dad but he is not a great person, he tries but he is very women orientated and ever since my mum died hes had loads of random women over and currently has a girlfriend hes had about a year that i really dislike. They make me so angry together and It makes me erupt by myself like currently I just cannot stop crying because I miss her so much. I feel like no one understands its making me very distant from my boyfriend and It has made me get quite a temper. I just dont know how to deal with the loss of the best person in my life, I was my mums suprise only child and she was an amazing mother and its just getting more and more difficult. I just dont know what to do I am not very good at talking to people face to face about it either.

Thank you very much for reading, im not quite sure what im asking I just dont really know what to do. I dont really understand how she passed so fast and I feel like so many questions were not answered.