Hi Everyone,  I'm struggling with grief at the moment ... Lost two people in last eight weeks to Cancer .. One was a friend she was 51yrs old and the other  two weeks ago my mother.  I feel angry then so distraught.. My mother was diagnosed in November 2016  and passed   January 26th 2017 ,   she managed to stay in her own home as she so wished right till 8 hours before passing as they could not get medication into her veins anymore .. she was taken into local hospice ... ....Im  dreading my mother's funeral on 3rd March the aniexty of being at the service seeing and feeling my son's and sisters  grief  is insurmountable ..  I'm not sure if I can stay strong, I feel I will let my family down... We all don't talk about how we feel, we all trying to be strong for each other.... But I feel like screaming !