Hi  I am new to the forum.

I lost my much loved husband, my best friend, my soulmate to this awful disease on 10th September 2016.  I miss him so so much there are no words.  I know he has gone, but still feel he will come home, I want him to come home.  I can't believe that my life with my husband in this world is over.  I don't know what it is all about or what it is all for anymore.  He was diagnosed with Junctional Oesophagus Cancer Easter 2015.  My dad passed away Christmas Day 2014 aged 84 from Oesophagus Cancer and now my husband has gone too.  All the time I was helping dad and my husband was always there with us helping him, all the time we were at hospital appointments etc this awful disease was growing inside my husband.  I am lucky we have two children, my daughter and our first grandchild were and living and still are living with me.  Our son and his wife are expecting their first child.  My husband knew our second grandchild was on the way and was at the birth and spent just 6 months with our first grandchild.  He is such a loss to them and to us.  I have been so moved by the forum.  Its easy to say but never give up hope, be as positive as you can, and if your not being listened too shout and shout change doctors refuse to leave until your listened too and more importantly until they act on what you are saying NOW.