Hi WA, I have wondered why my wife who was the kindest person I have ever know was to be taken by this nasty cancer, she never had a bad word to say about anyone, she was married to a monster of a man for about 37 years, he beat her, he never allowed her to have money in her pocket, all her clothes were second hand, when she left him and found me a few months later she was drained completely, she explained to me that she was lost and alone for years in a marraige she seemed to be a prisoner in, I can see in her oldest son the father, he beats all his women, he is selfish, and arogant, in fact he and I have stopped speaking as he got greedy when I gave him and his siblings a gift of £2,500 each which I promised Ann I would do, it left me short of money, but a promise is a promise. I am in a total feeling of shock as to what my little wife went through, she was so brave up until the end, she told the nurses I had lost my sense of humour, which I have, it's just such a loss, I only had her in my life for just over 15 years, but I loved her so deeply it hurts me emotionally, I have knots in my stomach all the time,. I thank you for your kind words and the time you have takedn to answer me.