Hi SarahLJ So sorry to read this, I too lost my Dad to cancer and you are right - nothing can prepare you for the grief. Small comfort perhaps but the fact that you are experiencing it is in itself evidence of the love you must have had for one another, a love that you will never lose. It has been years now since I lost my 'Pops' and there are still occasions where I find myself choked at not having him around but I do find myself comforted more and more as time passes, by the wonderful memories I have of him. Sending you a 'virtual' hug hun xx