Hello saltpot, 

I'm so sorry to hear your husband of 15 years has passed away and on behalf of the moderation team I just want to offer you our condolences.

It can be very difficult knowing what to write or say when you are in so much pain but I just wanted to let you know you're not alone. Many members here will really understand how you feel having gone through the same process with their husbands, wives and partners and I'm sure they will post to offer their support and advice soon. In the meantime I thought this discussion on the forum may help. Feel free to post and chat to the other members as I'm sure they would love to hear from you and help you as much as they can.

Kind Regards, 

Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator