My mum battled cancer for 8 years. At first she got breast cancer and fought all the way through the chemo treatment. Eventually she got the all clear.

Then 2 years after she got cervical cancer which again was operated on. However after the operation and having more scans they found it on her spine. I was 18 when they told my mum it was no longer curable and that they could only give medication to prolong her life. Mum showed no pain or fear knowing she wasn't going to see me and my little brother grow. 

In March 2015 mum had a stroke from blood clots on the brain which meant they had to take her off her cancer treatments. And unfortunately on the 17th December 2015 the cancer took my mums life by spreading from the spine to the brain. 

Its almost a year now and I don't feel like its getting any easier. I miss her so much as my mum was my only best friend and I can't seem to find anyone to relate too. People see me have a few tears and even though they know what Ive been through, they just tell me to get over it. 

If my mum was here she would know what to say and would know what I need. Ive tried counselling groups but nothing's working for me and again it's because I'm put with people who haven't lost their parents or have done but haven't been as close as I was to my mum. My dad isn't a sensitive man so doesn't see the pain I'm feeling. 

I just really want to talk to someone