Hello i lost my dad on 17th september to pleural mesothelioma .

Devastated doesnt come close to how me and my family are feeling at the moment ..i really just wanted a bit of advice really.

One of my collegues at work said to me " i bet you and you're family are dreading christmas "?...well to be honest.. im not ? ..i will be extremely sad and will shed a lot of tears..but im not dreading it ..is there something wrong with me ? My mum feels the same as me ..why arent i dreading it ? My Dad absolutely adored christmas .he got so excited..started planning xmas menu in october !! He was so funny to watch him going on about it ..he drove mum mad lol..i was as bad as him about it  and i know for a fact if he is watching over us he would be furious if we didn't celebrate it best we could..even if he couldnt be with us ..i feel guilty that im not dreading it..but i know its not how Dad would want us to feel about it .

Thanks for reading ..maybe there is no right or wrong way to feel about it .

Sarah x