I sadly lost my mum on the 23rd of august this year. It was all so quick she was diagnosed in june and by august she was just gone. I haven't really been coping well im only 22 And was soo close to my mum I miss her so much and think of her every day I'm really struggling being at home cos I just get to upset and have so many memory's with her here even down to just sitting down on tbe sofa watching tv. I have a 7 month old baby who keeps me busy and I have started staying with my partner wnd his family a lot since she passed as it is wasier when I am wit them but then have guilt of leaving my dad everytime he says it fine and to to live my life vut i no he isn't coping well kind of selfish I know.. anyway Christmas is coming up and for the first time I am completely dreading it my mum wanted to be here for my daughters first Christmas which breaks my heart she won't be. We usually both put the Christmas tree up together Thisbe hear I would have to do it alone I can't shop for her xmas present I can't have dinner with her even hearing Christmas songs pisses me off cos it's just a reminder My mum isn't here!! It's so hard to believe she still isn't here any advice on how to get through it This year ? Really struggling :(