I'm not quite sure how to start this post really and I always seem to come back here to vent, purely because I feel like a lot of you understand the method to my madness. It will be two years in May 2017 since I lost my Dad and this Christmas will be our second without him. I'll also be having my 20th Birthday. Christmas is such a frustrating time of year, everyone around you begins to beocme really cheerful, me on the otherhand becomes miserable. My Dad loved christmas, and loved seeing me and my sister happy. I know he'd want us happy, and I'm trying really hard. But of late I'm just so frustrated and is it wrong of me to be angry and question why my dad? why my selfless Dad aged 47, who adored his children, and loved life. Am I always going to live my good days feeling guilty and both my bad and good days forever wanting my dad here. The ache doesn't stop, and I just want one last conversation, to give me any advice, *** anything, becuase I'm struggling and I don't want anyone else.
