Losing My Manoula (mum) has been the hardest thing in my life to cope with.  She was released to the Gods 7 months ago and every day is an almighty, and mean an almighty climb and loss within me.  We are Greek Orthodox and not allowing to cremate in Greece, I had her cremated here, then I took her back home to where she belongs, amongst the stars and warmth she can feel.  I see her many times whilst I am sleeping and being the only daughter it has turned my inner world into emptyness.  She used to live opposite me where I could care for her every needs every day. Then one day I look out of my window and see just a closed door :-( - You never ever get over something so close to you all your life and even though every day is a healer, it makes the hurt stronger to remember everything of her. I look in the mirror and I see her reflection in mine we are that so alike.  All I can say to all you lovely and caring people, it eases and how we cope with our grief is the hardest thing to do, but I am a good listener and know and feel every bit of pain when it comes to speaking about your one and only mum, that I sure do know.  Try and keep smiling she wouldn't want you to be without a smile xx

My mum died just under 2 weeks ago and I'm struggling so much to carry on. I work full time, 40 hours a week but it's so diffucult cos all I can think about is my beautiful amazing mum

She was diagnosed 2.5 years ago with multiple myeloma (although she managed to keep it from me for 2 years) I knew there was something wrong with her as she told me the hospital informed her she had sonething wrong but she assured me she would get better

She was a naturopath and very against medical help

However this year her illness took a turn for the worst and she ended up in hospital. So she had no choice but to tell me how I'll she was

After this she never made it back home. Sadly her cancer had spread to her lungs and breast

Having to see my mum in the final days was by far the worst thing I've ever had to see. Her whole body decayed with cancer. 

She had a very peaceful death, she was on constant morphine. I should be happy she's out of pain. But she was my beautiful mum and I'm completely lost without her. She'd faithfully text me good morning and goodnight

I have lost all my appetite and have no enthusiasm for anything. I feel so angry that I've been left alone in the world (my dad died of liver disease) and so angry with everyone and everything, even though no ones done anything wrong

Ive never felt so alone, I have very few people I can or would want to talk to. I'm not the most outgoing person and feel as though I have to put up a barrier and pretend I'm ok when I'm really not especially in work and around my mum's friends etc

My whole world feels ripped apart :( 

I just want my mum back so so much it's like a truly horrible dream.....

My mum died just under 2 weeks ago and I'm struggling so much to carry on. I work full time, 40 hours a week but it's so diffucult cos all I can think about is my beautiful amazing mum

She was diagnosed 2.5 years ago with multiple myeloma (although she managed to keep it from me for 2 years) I knew there was something wrong with her as she told me the hospital informed her she had sonething wrong but she assured me she would get better

She was a naturopath and very against medical help

However this year her illness took a turn for the worst and she ended up in hospital. So she had no choice but to tell me how I'll she was

After this she never made it back home. Sadly her cancer had spread to her lungs and breast

Having to see my mum in the final days was by far the worst thing I've ever had to see. Her whole body decayed with cancer. 

She had a very peaceful death, she was on constant morphine. I should be happy she's out of pain. But she was my beautiful mum and I'm completely lost without her. She'd faithfully text me good morning and goodnight

I have lost all my appetite and have no enthusiasm for anything. I feel so angry that I've been left alone in the world (my dad died of liver disease) and so angry with everyone and everything, even though no ones done anything wrong

Ive never felt so alone, I have very few people I can or would want to talk to. I'm not the most outgoing person and feel as though I have to put up a barrier and pretend I'm ok when I'm really not especially in work and around my mum's friends etc

My whole world feels ripped apart :( 

I just want my mum back so so much it's like a truly horrible dream.....

I'm so sorry to hear you've recently lost your mum and dad and to everyone else here who has. I lost my mum a year and a half ago and I totally resonate with those who feel like they've lost part of themselves not just a parent. The world can feel lonely and well, pretty frightening.

I don't know you or your work situation, but could you possibly take some time off? It sounds like you've been through a lot and are right in the middle of grieving whilst trying to outwardly carry on like normal, which sounds incredibly hard. You need to be kind to yourself and give yourself time to feel however you want to feel. I know it sounds cliche, but maybe bereavement counselling would be a good idea too if you felt like it was something you could do.

Please remember as well that it's early days. I'm not saying the pain gets less, because it doesn't, but it does get interspersed with good things. Take care x