My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

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  • Hi everyone, I know exactly how ye all feel. I lost my mother a month ago to ovarian cancer at the age of 55, I myself am only 28, I am devastated beyond words. I myself have two kids and I have to be strong for them, other than that I wouldn't know how to go on. Everyday I pick up my phone to ring her and tell her something and then reality hits like a tonne of bricks, yesterday my eldest boy started play school. It was a happy but very emotional day as my mam was so looking forward to seeing him. She cherished my kids. They were her world. We used to talk everyday atleast five times and now its gone to zero. I feel as though my heart is broke in two. I miss her so much. I miss seeing her everyday. I miss every little small thing she did. She was diagnosed in march and passed away in august. She was bed bound. Her life turned upside down in the blink of an eye. It killed me to see her so sick. No one should have to bury their mam in their twenties

  • Hello, I’m 19 and lost my mum to stage 4 lung cancer, it kills me every day knowing my mum won’t be at my wedding when I grow up or see me have children, or even graduate, she was my best friend I was her shadow, I’m not grown up just yet and I remember the last thing I told her was I got accepted in to uni. It’s not fair because I don’t get enough time with her 19 years is nothing. I hope it gets better but because she only died last year everything is hard, Christmas, my birthday, Mother’s day. I would love some support off other people who know what it’s like, because they share the same emotions as me and understand the situation.

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  • Hello, I’m 19 and lost my mum to stage 4 lung cancer, it kills me every day knowing my mum won’t be at my wedding when I grow up or see me have children, or even graduate, she was my best friend I was her shadow, I’m not grown up just yet and I remember the last thing I told her was I got accepted in to uni. It’s not fair because I don’t get enough time with her 19 years is nothing. I hope it gets better but because she only died last year everything is hard, Christmas, my birthday, Mother’s day. I would love some support off other people who know what it’s like, because they share the same emotions as me and understand the situation.

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