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My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

Snowflake72555
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My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

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  • Offline in reply to Heatherm29

    Hi I am new to the forum. I have just lost my mum on the 26th Feb. Her funeral will take place next week.

    I am feeling exactly the same as most of your other replies, feeling all alone and like I am the only person ever in the world to loose her mum..........how an earth as a female do you cope without your mum?

    Mums teach us everything apart from how to manage without them! The hardest thing for me is the fact that I know that I am never going to see her again.

    Tomorrow is mothers day but i dont have one now. I can no longer tell her how special she is or how much she is loved!

    My mum was given the all clear at the beginning of the year after having radiotherapy only to find out 5 weeks later that she had 2 weeks left to live x

  • Offline in reply to Foster1

    Hi I too feel the same way as you - how can I cope when mum is the one who helps me cope? My husband is angry that I’m not the person I was . I feel he has no understanding and doesn’t even try. I have grown up children and a 10 year old who suffers with anxiety. I feel so alone and isolated . It’s been 6 months since mum died but my anger and emotions are still all over the place.I hate the way my family carry on when I’m so upset but I know it’s unreasonable to expect them to feel the same. I can’t visit the grave and every event ( the next being Easter) hurts so much . I would do anything to talk to her again...

  • Offline in reply to Foster1
    I’m sorry to hear about your mum, I lot my mum just over a week ago! Like your mum she was told her cancer was gone and she would just have check ups, mum started getting symptoms and went back to consultant to be told she was fine! 5 weeks later she was in hospital and another week later she was gone... I’m just so angry about that! I agree as a female we need our mums to help and guide us!!! Mum was my best friend, we spoke and saw each other multiple times a day and neater the end when mum was ill I was always with her making her meals, helping her to wash, going to the shops etc, I don’t know what to do with myself anymore!!! I still don’t really believe she is gone but every so often I realise I’m never going to see her again, hear her voice or talk to her and it hits me like a ton of bricks! X
  • Offline in reply to kerry99

    Hi I too lost my mum to bowel cancer 4 weeks ago and I can't get my head around it still. I miss her so much and for a split second go to call her then it hits me again she's gone forever. My mum suffered in the last three months as it was so aggressive so I'm glad she is no longer in pain but I feel robbed that she has gone. You life changes immediately in the blink of an eye and I don't believe I will ever get over it. So sorry for your loss x

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