My mum died and I can't cope with the loss

My mum died of liver cancer 9 months ago. I find each day unbearable and find it harder and harder. I can't sleep at night and break down all the time. I miss her so much and my life feels so empty without her. I have two children and I continue for their sake otherwise I wouldn't have the will to get out of bed each day as I feel so down. 

Does it get easier? because right now, it feels awful.

I keep thinking I need to tell mum this and remember she's gone and breakdown. I see people with their mothers and I envy them.

I feel so alone and helpless. Feel like part of me has died too and I struggle to get back up again.

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  • Hi everyone, I know exactly how ye all feel. I lost my mother a month ago to ovarian cancer at the age of 55, I myself am only 28, I am devastated beyond words. I myself have two kids and I have to be strong for them, other than that I wouldn't know how to go on. Everyday I pick up my phone to ring her and tell her something and then reality hits like a tonne of bricks, yesterday my eldest boy started play school. It was a happy but very emotional day as my mam was so looking forward to seeing him. She cherished my kids. They were her world. We used to talk everyday atleast five times and now its gone to zero. I feel as though my heart is broke in two. I miss her so much. I miss seeing her everyday. I miss every little small thing she did. She was diagnosed in march and passed away in august. She was bed bound. Her life turned upside down in the blink of an eye. It killed me to see her so sick. No one should have to bury their mam in their twenties

  • I have just lost my mum a few weeks ago. Oh my god I looked after her she had emezimia so looked after her cos she couldn't walk far. That didn't take her she died suddenly of heart failure. She was at coroner for three weeks. I don't know what to do without her she was my life.the one thing I can't get out of my mind is seeing her dead on the sofa that Sunday morning. I do try it makes me cry everyday.
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  • I have just lost my mum a few weeks ago. Oh my god I looked after her she had emezimia so looked after her cos she couldn't walk far. That didn't take her she died suddenly of heart failure. She was at coroner for three weeks. I don't know what to do without her she was my life.the one thing I can't get out of my mind is seeing her dead on the sofa that Sunday morning. I do try it makes me cry everyday.
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