My Dad is dying from oesophageal cancer and is having a really rough time with palliative chemo. My Nan is also ill in hospital and has just been diagnosed with dementia. I've lost other close members of family including my brother and both of my Grandads died before I was born/met them. I'm struggling to see the point in this life- feeling really pessimistic. I keep thinking something bad will happen to my husband or my Mum too. I can't take any more loss. I don't know how to keep going right now. I work hard and have a good job but what's the point if I could get ill and die at any time?