My dad recovered from cancer in 2011 and went into remission from a jaw cancer. However last week an MRI caught a large tumor in the trigeminal nerve, its inoperable and aggressive, and radiotherapy is out of the question since he already had it for the first bout of cancer. The doctors didnt give us a specific time, we were just told "months". I feel like I've lost him already. I can't see him without bursting into tears and hugging him. I know he probably wants to spend time with me normally with the time he has left, but I just can't stop thinking that I'm never going to get to hug my dad again. I'm only 22, I'm crippled by the thought my dad will never hold my kids, or see me finish medical school, I feel so robbed. The worst part is I know it's only going to be worse when he goes, this is relatively a great time by comparison and I'm dreading it. I feel awful and selfish, reading stories on here, people have it so much worse than me, and my dad of course has it worst of all of anyone in the family and i should be there for him. I'm trying to be strong for him, but I don't feel like I can handle this. I dont see how its ever going to be ok again.