I have never experienced pain such as this and I do not know if it will ever get better..

My mum ws diagnosed with Liver Cancer in July this year and she passed away in August. Totally unexpected, one moment she was well and seemed ok the next she was bed ridden and her body was shutting down. 

My beloved mum was the rock of our family, she was the backbone, the glue that held us all together. She was and will always be a beautiful and treasured gift, whose worth we will never get to truly comprehend.

I live in a state of perpetual sadness now, days seem long and hard without her, this last week has been hard as my only memories at the moment are of this horrible disease eating away at her strength and resolve. Admittedley mum was always a fighter and she fought right to the end. We all thought she would make it through so it was a shock the day she passed.

My life is at a loss without her in it, family and friends have rallied round to support but nothing will make up for the massive void in my heart. 

What I would say is that we found out after the disease had already caused quite a bit of damage and the only reason we found out was due to another unrelated health complaint.

Research says that Liver Cancer is hard to detect and that succesful treatment occurs if caught early. I wish my mum had had that option, I have days where I think back to possible ways that somehow, someway we could have caught it early and maybe she would still be here with us...

So many questions, so many thoughts, so many emotions... I fear that I will never be the same.... 

Miss and love you more than words could ever describe my darling and wonderful mama...