Hey, Jen123! 
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have recently lost my mum, she was 47. It's been nearly 3 weeks now, and at the very beginning, I thought that it will never be okay. I would cry my eyes out every day, now I just can't anymore. I suppose I have cried everything out. 
I have moments when I feel okay, and then like you said.. your mood changes completely. 
I know there are no words in the World which would make you feel better, but you're strong and believe me or not everything is going to be okay. 
I won't say that time heals everything, because to me it seems that it doesn't. 

Just try and think about all the good times you shared with your husband. 
This is what helps me. I try to remember times we had fun. Looking at the old photos helps me in a way. It might be different for you, it might make you even more upset. 
I know I am not the best advice giver, but if you feel like you need a chat, you can message me. 

Take care!!! 

I think it is good to cry, its all part of the grieving process apparently. We all have different reactions to this terrible loss, I am 4 months into mine and it has changed. It will for you but just take it as it comes and  hopefully over time it will ease and we can then perhaps enjoy our little memory trips much better and without so much pain.

I too looked for some sign and I was told it would be subtle rather than full on. I cant say it has happened yet but maybe it has and I haven't realised it. So never give up hope, if it does happen, it will happen when maybe we are ready for it.

Just look after yourself, you are very young and have a long life ahead of you and plenty of time to recover and enjoy the memories. I hope this helps, I find it difficult to reply but it does help me too.

Hi

I lost my dad a few months ago. We did his ashes last week and later on the children wrote notes to Grandpa and sent them up to him on balloons. The weather had been awful all day but as the balloons went up the clouds cleared and the sun shone through onto the sea in a small area above us. I hope this was my sign that Dad is ok. I managed to get it on camera and it gives me comfort. I miss him terribly and still cannot comprehend that I will never see him again. It is still so raw but the ok days get more plentiful than the crying days as time passes. Sending love to you all. Can't imagine how you must feel losing a young husband. So wrong. Keep strongxx

I lost my dad in March this year I felt shocked and gutted my dad was always going to be there or so I thought even now I'm gutted but there are days when we get on with things and I'm ok and my mum I have a big tub in the garden full of flowers which is my dads garden cause he loved his own garden and it gives me a lot of peace putting his favourite flowers in it it's hard without him but it gets easier to remember him with happy memories rather than being sad hope you feeling better as time goes on never forget but do what your dad would want you to do carry on hope this helps 

I'm so sorry for you I lost my dad in March this year so I can understand just a little bit of what you going through but not how you feel loosing your husband keep strong as much as you can time helps it doesn't heal but just take each day at a time in your own time I hope you feeling a little bit better as each day comes it's very hard but you will get there in your own time thinking of you 

Hi Jen

I lost my husband in February this year to unknown primary cancer that spread to his liver. He was told on a Tuesday and died Saturday morning that week. He was 51 years of age and we was married for 18 months. He was my soul mate , I know that there is life after death and he has given me lots of evidence to prove it.  We are both spiritualists and we were not afraid of dying. Cancer is evil and I know so many people that have been effected by this. Please stay strong you are very young and he will still be with you always. Take one day at a time and focus on the good times you shared .