i am sorry to hear of your sad loss, I lost my dad on the 3rd Sep after fighting to keep him going and feel defeated and lost as well, I wake up everyday thinking it was a dream, but sadly not.
you are not alone, take one day at a time, I do not feel that I will ever be able to accept the loss of my Dad, but will try to accept some sort of acceptance in time and when ready will try to enjoy the smaller things in life first of all.
please stay in touch and just pour out your feelings as we are all here to listen and help each through this .
