Hello,

I'm 21 and dad passed away last June from stomach cancer.  Although it has been almost three months since I lost him, I don't really feel like I have started to get over it - or should I say learn to live with it.  Some days/weeks I feel I have started to cope better, and then I seem to go back downhill.  I thought that each day it would get a little better and a little easier, yet that now seems naive because that's not what has happened in reality.  

I also find it difficult to talk to many of my friends, it seems to have come to a time where they no longer ask how I'm doing or how I'm coping. I know they cannot continue to ask forever, but sometimes I feel like they have forgotten what I've gone through, which also makes me think I'm being a bit selfish.  Whenever my friends see me I appear fine - I'm not crying or upset, so I feel like they assume that I'm fine.  I feel like just because they see me at my best, they think that's how I am all the time.

If anyone has any advice, or is going/gone through something similar I would love to hear from you