Hello

i can't believe it's been over 3 months now since my mum passed. Time goes so quickly. I had a ring made from Ashes Into Glass, it's beautiful. It gives me some comfort.

lately I've been feeling a bit down. It's hard to describe. My contract at work ended in August so I'm trying to find another job. I have a few interviews coming up. I had an interview at Asda but they said no. 

Im just really getting fed up now. I'm also trying to look for a car and I saw one I really liked and I contacted the garage and everything but it's been reserved already. I feel so disappointed.

i had a chat with a guy that my dad knows the other day. I told him about my mum and he was shocked. He said that he usually donates money to cancer charities but he wonders if they are getting anywhere. I think that got me a bit annoyed, they haven't found a cure yet. Of course I hope they do but I know it will take a long time.

i also feel that I'm too young to be going through all this, I'm only 21. I've been sighing a lot lately and just generally feeling crap. I think I sort of see that things won't get better, it's difficult.

Sometimes I also get quite ready over stupid things.

Any advice is welcome.

Rosie x