I'm so sorry to hear that your mum passed away yesterday and on behalf of the Cancer Chat team I just wanted to offer our condolences to you and your family.
It's understandable your emotions are all over the place at the moment but I just want you to know you are not alone. Many members will know how you're feeling having lost family members themselves and I am sure they will be along soon to offer their support to you at this difficult time.
My mum died in July. I was with her too and I can't describe how grateful I am for that opportunity - after everything she did for me, after every time she wiped my tears away, held my hand, told me it was going to be ok - well I'm glad I had the chance to repay her and I hope I bought her a fraction of the comfort she bought me.
Remember it's ok to be lost. It's ok to cry. It's ok to have a panic ok. It's also ok to not cry. You do whatever you need to do.
I still feel like I've been punched in the chest. There's an ache that I honestly don't think will ever go away. But my mum told me that cancer will not affect our lives - that we will carry on as normal as possible - that was her motto throughout both her battles with cancer - so I try and carry on as she wanted. And I know she's next to me, laughing at my mistakes, holding my hand when I cry, dancing with me as I get ready to head out. Just remember your mum never left you. Mum's don't do that.
I am so very sorry to hear about your dear Dad's passing - it is all just so sad and my thoughts and prayers are with you at this horrible time. Take care and look after yourself - hugs. X
