Hi Riri,

i didn't want to read and run. I'm so sorry for your loss, my mum passed away just over 3 months ago and she fought for 20months with the focus being her grandchildren. She died the day after my son was 18months, I'm so glad she met him and we spent that time together and he met her but I am so angry and so sad that she won't be in their future and watch them growing up and do the things that grandparents do with grandchildren. She wanted me and my sister to have children for years and we both did, within 6 months of each other and then she was diagnosed with this disgusting and vile disease during my pregnancy. It's not fair. And it isn't fair for you. I'm so sorry your dad is not getting to meet your baby but I'm sure that you will tell you child all about your wonderful dad and show photos and tell stories of all the memories you have of him. Life can be so unkind at times and although this is such a lovely and wonderful time for you,being an expectant parent, it's got sadness with it too. Your baby will keep you going and you won't believe the love you have for it, all your dad would want for you is to be happy, as all parents want for their children. My son keeps me going every day and makes me smile and laugh, just as my mum would have wanted and just as your dad would want for you.

big hugs xx