I can't sleep , I'm reading all the posts just thinking in my head there's only my family suffering the loss of there dad to cancer , !! It's such a cruel disease , and I get angry at the word ? . It's been 5 weeks since I lost not only my dad but best friend to lung cancer , I'm 52 but these past weeks are a blur my poor mum is in shock and I feel I can't grief cos I'm to worried bout her . She so angry at the minute ? But all this sadness I just won't to say I admired my dad so much he never moaned once just got on with even making 3 trips to our holiday home in Spain one visit 2 weeks before he died celebrating his 80 th yes he ended up in a wheel chair the last month but it never stopped him , he was at home with me mum and my 2 sisters we did the paletive care for the last week as you wouldn't think my dad was ill he never lost weight etc wish as helped me a lot reading people's post as made me write this yes with tears in my eyes but iv done it and hope with the happy family memories we've shared for years gets us thru this heart breaking journey ahead