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Hello everyone. Im Rachel and I was guided in this direction because my father died 6 weeks ago. We were told it was cirrhosis of the liver and if he made some lifestyle choices he'd be ok. After looking after him for 8 months he just got progressively worse, living with ascites and fluid on the lungs etc. He was in and out of hospital but the last time he went in he had an infection. A week later we were told he had cancer in the liver, chest and adrenals and within five days he was dead. My boyfriend's Dad only died 8 months ago due to cancer also. This last year has been so tough. 

  • Offline in reply to eliza24

    Hi Eliza, 

    I'm so sorry to hear you've lost your best friend and Dad. My dad was also one of my best friends and my life feels a lot emptier without him. Your are right, we are never ready to lose them are we. I just wish my dad got to enjoy some of his retirement. 

    It has also been 6 weeks for me. I feel completely exhausted. I hope the pain starts to ease for you and you have someone or something to help you.

    Sending love your way also xx

     

  • Offline in reply to Bevvy182412

    Hi Bevvy,

    I am so sorry to hear about your dad. It is so hard isn't it. My dad lost a lot of weight and he really did look so poorly in the end. Sadly we never managed to get dad home as much as it was his wish to go home, he was just too poorly and died before we could move him. I'm sure having you all around him at home gave him so much comfort. My dad told me he was scared and I simply replied with "your not on your own through this" I suppose no matter how hard it is for us it must be even harder for them. I hope you and your family are ok. Im glad you have each other. I was so greatful to have my big brother by my side through out it all. Take care xx 

  • Offline in reply to Patricia123
    Hi Patricia, I lost my dad last Thursday early hours, pancreatic cancer, it was the worst thing ever to see someone skeletonise to nothing with this terrible disease. I'm devastated. I take comfort from spending last 3 months with him, every day. He was diagnosed with diabetes, but that was a huge shock, I think it was the cancer. It was inoperable when they found it, attached to main vessel, he had chemo, drs told him he had 9 months with treatment in November 15, he died 1st September 16. My heart is truly broken xx
  • Offline in reply to Dawn07

    Hi so sorry for your loss.  I lost dad four weeks ago and im still numb.  Dont no how i should feel x

  • Offline in reply to Jakesterblack

    Dear jakesterblack

     

    you are not alone, I to lost my dear father 4 weeks this coming Saturday from unknown cancer in either his UGI or gallbladder and he also had secondary on lungs and liver, but when diagnosed in December he then had chemo until June, which he sailed through, then had a blockage and jaundice and could not treat further, never thought I would lose him , just thought he may keep plugging along.

    we had a beautiful service and cremation last Friday and it was although sad , and very uplifting day and evening , my dad would have loved it. 

    I am like you, numb and cannot believe he has gone and confused on how I should feel, I get moments of normal feeling and then back to grief as it does not feel right to think normal.

    I do hope the pain eases.

  • Offline in reply to Duchie

    Hi, nice to hear from you.  It is so hard isnt it.   Dad fought for long time and last few months were very hard on him so felt bit of relief that he is pain free but miss him sooooo much x 

  • Offline in reply to Duchie

    I lost my dad in August 2015 after a 10 month vowel cancer battle. 

    I was only 24. I feel too young to have lost my parent who I still lived with so still played such a huge role in my life. 

    I miss him so much. Words can't explain. But my heart hurts. I think of him constantly. 

    I still struggle sleeping, because I still hear and see him struggling and dying, and I feel so guilty. 

    If I didn't have my daughter, then I wish I could of gone through it for him. He was such a strong and proud man and cancer ruined him. I feel so guilty. 

  • Offline in reply to ScarlettG

    Hi i no its so hard.  Im lucky that i had dad til he was 84 and was with us a long time but i still wish i could hug him and i no wot u mean about the pain inside.  Its just so hard.  My heart goes out to u xxx 

  • Offline in reply to Duchie

    How u doing Duchie? I find it hard to sleep, dream about dad a lot and then get upset.  Im concentrating more at work but still carrying this pain in my heart and my mum just not coping at all.  I know dad would want me to be strong but im struggling and miss him so much.  I dread christmas and just miss him so much x 

  • Offline in reply to Jakesterblack

    Hi Jakesterblack,

    It is such early days for you and it is all so difficult. My Daddy died in March 2012 from secondary cancer of the liver and I am still heartbroken. Thinking of you. X

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