Hi L, I am so sorry for your loss, I lost my mum to cancer in Jan this year, nothing will take away your pain but as time goes by it will get easier but don't rush it. I'm an ex soldier that was wounded in Iraq and in Afghanistan I ended up losing my job on medical grounds I have PTSD and a gun shot wound, my mum was really proud of me and always had time for me even in my darkest moments when I wanted to end myself I always would have an out the blue phone call or text I'm in my 30s I was in the army 14 yrs I left home at 18 and didn't really go back, when I left two years ago I was abit lost my mum as always was supportive of me and wanted to see me happy and I'm getting there, my mum took a turn for the worst in Aug last year and went into Hostpital there it turned out she had stage 4 lung cancer with tumours in her brain she didn't have long left nor given the chance to fight it, I was heartbroken and I wish it was me, I wish I could have taken that horrible illness off her that vile disease it could take me I'm not scared of death, as the months went on I spoke to her every day and tried my best to get to hers 200 miles away every week for a few days as I wasn't working, I got time with her some good some bad but it was time and was precious to me, then I received a call at 0430 on the 13 th Jan telling me I had to travel back, I got there my mum was dying she was anxious and wasn't fully aware of what was going on, I stayed with her till the end she passed away at 2110 that night, since then each day is different like today..... I really miss her and upset by it but yesterday I wasn't upset and maybe tomorrow il be smiling or maybe crying .. Every day is going to be different for you be true to yourself and you feel the way you need to if you need to cry let it if you need a quiet moment then do it and even speak to your Dad as I still speak to my mum and don't let folk with best intentions tell you how to feel and be there for your sister even if times get hard make sure you always have each other through life. I'm so sorry for your loss and I just wanted to reach out and say hi and let you know my story as your not alone and if I can help if be only too happy too. Take care and time heals , Jonny x

I just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear of your dad's passing. I know there's probably nothing i can say right now to make you feel better, but I just wanted to offer my support. Sending my thoughts your way as you and your family go through this difficult time. 

I just wanted to say on behalf of the Cancer Chat team that we are really sorry for the loss of your dad. Our thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.

It's nice to see that you received such lovely responses and messages of support from JP34 and GiftThePresent and I hope the forum will be a place for you where you can draw some comfort from talking to others who understand what you are going through at the moment.

Best wishes,

Lucie, Cancer Chat Moderator

So sorry for your loss, and everyone else on here who has lost loved ones. My dad passed away on 24th July. I've lost a few family members over the years but the grief has never felt quite like this. Sending lots of hugs to everyone going through the same thing xxx