I miss my dad

Hi there, new to the forum but would like to share my experiences.

My dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung and liver cancer on the 1st June and sadly died on the 20th June . Was so sudden I think we were all in auto pilot and didn't realise what was happening at the time,

He originally went to hospital as had back pain, did lots of tests etc, ct scan, was then fast tracked to a lung specialist who gave the devastating news on the 1st June that he had lung cancer. we were told he would give treatment and may live up to 12 months. He was sent home as seemed quite healthy at the time, awaiting a biopsy. In the meantime he went downhill, although not in pain, said he was uncomfortable , we called out the go who gave him medication but that didn't help. He then had a biopsy and waited a week for the results, by that time he couldn't communicate with us, when we went for the results he was admitted on the Thursday as his calcium levels were abnormal , he then went rapidly downhill, caught a chest infection and passed away on the Monday.

We are all heartbroken, he was fit and healthy a week before he got ill, was 75 so slowing down a bit but showed no signs of been ill at all.

My question is, is this normal ? , his change in hospital was scary and lost so much body weight , not experienced this before at all.

i miss him so much, and life feels empty now, don't know how I can go on anymore.

Thank You

Paul

 

  • Welcome to the forum Paul although I'm sorry for the reason it has brought you here and on behalf of the Cancer Chat team I want to offer our condolences to you and your family on the passing of your father.

    Cancer can affect people in different ways as many of our members know and I'm sure they will post soon to offer their support and share their experiences with you. Also our specialist cancer nurses are available to talk to as well. They are available Monday - Friday between 9a.m - 5p.m and if you are in the UK you can call them for free on 0808 800 4040.

    In regards to how you're feeling at the moment, it's completely natural and although it may not seem like it right now, it will get better with time. I have found some information on our website about coping with grief which may help you at this difficult time.

    Thank you for sharing your experience with us Paul. That must have been very difficult but remember that you can post here any time and we are here for you if you need us.

    Wishing you and your family all the very best, 

    Steph, Cancer Chat Moderator

  • Hi Paul

    Firstly I would like to say that I am so sorry for the loss of your lovely dad, it must have been such a shock for you, being that quick. 

    My dad went three months after diagnosis and that felt incredibly quick to us. He was in his late 70's but was fit and healthy before this vile illness came along. I know it sounds naive but I honestly thought he would live for years longer, I thought at his age he had managed to escape the threat of cancer, how wrong I was.

    You sound like you were close to your dad and I was too. We had his funeral yesterday, which I had been dreading, but I didn't break down like I thought I would, instead I just sat there angry.  It was a nice service but all I could think of is this shouldn't have happened, we shouldn't be here, he didn't deserve it, I think I am going to be angry for a very long time, I just can't help it at the moment.

    I am sorry if this is no help, I guess what I wanted to say is that grief will cause you to feel many different emotions and although it's a cliche, just look after yourself and take one day at a time. My life feels so empty without my dad, I really did worship him, but what I have discovered reading forums like these is that I was lucky to have such a lovely dad for as long as I did as some people do not get that chance.

    Take care, thinking of you and your family xx