Hi there Sonners, welcome to the forum but sorry for why you're here. You have come to a good place though, since there are many forum members on here who have lost loved ones to cancer, including many who have lost a spouse/partner. It is very early on in your grief over this loss and you likely are still in shock, even though you knew it would happen eventually because it was a death due to cancer. It is still a shock. I have lost a partner, family members, and many friends to cancer, but it is still somewhat of a shock when death happens. I now have cancer myself, but that's a whole other story.

A big part of healing from the loss of a loved one is giving yourself the time to grieve and grieving is a process, not a one time deal. It is also hard and painful, but it is necessary if you are to eventually go on with your life in a healthy way. Take the time to grieve this loss. You don't say how long your relationship was with your partner and you don't say how long he/she was ill. Perhaps if you can bring yourself to write about the relationship you had with your partner, what your life was like with this person, some of the things you did together, etc. this process can be very helpful in going through your grief. Writing can be a very healing experience. If you are finding it very hard, you may want to get some grief counselling to help you through this. I hope you have family/friends to help and support you through this time.

Come on here anytime and write about how you're doing. People here will respond.

Take care and sending hugs.

Lorraine 

Thankyou lorraineD

it is still very raw, my partner was an amazing she got diagnosed 11 week before she passed and to see her change every minute of everyday for very upsetting and hard to take she was a very brave person right up till her passing, I'm just struggling to except that we were together for seven years why she was taken away so cruelly I do have family who are there for me it's just me not letting them and grieving all alone that maybe the way I deal with things I just want her back 

hello

So sorry for what you're going through. I lost my husband 8 weeks ago , we were married for just 5 weeks. Nothing I can say will make it any easier for you . Just wanted to say you are not alone .

hugs xxx

Thankyou

im sorry for you loss too, just wish it wasn't happening so often losing lived ones to cancer far too many

hi

I've always said that cancer is a silent thief , it steals your future and leaves just memories, it doesn't matter if you are young or old , it will take anyone at any time with no rhyme or reason .

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Hi sonners 

just to let you know you are not alone ((hugs)) thinking of you all , my precious mum was diagnosed in 22nd of March and sadly passed Friday 13th may , my mum was so fit and healthy and had a better social life than all her kids that's what we are finding hard to take in and too see the dramatic change in mum in those 7and 1/2 weeks broke our hearts, mum and me were soul mates we were never apart , I still find it hard to believe that she's not actually here with me , I still reach for the phone to call her , I still can't face anyone not even family, I find it really difficult so I do know how you are feeling my thoughts are with you and I hope there is a way forward for all of us but somehow right now I can't see it because the pain in my heart won't let me  (((hugs to you all))) xx

Hello XlynneX

im so very sorry for your loss, and it is one off the hardest things to deal with and get your head around, how can you possibly understand that your loved one has gone,we had the funeral yesterday and it was one of the saddest days of my life saying a goodbye to the one person are close to are heart I can't see me ever been the same again just because my partner was my soul mate and loved me warts and all we only had seven years but truly the most presious memories that I have forever until we meet again I really don't want to life without her and that what's hurts because she should be here living her life why she had to cancer and get taken away so soon is very cruel and one I will never accept for the rest of my life, and I know how your feeling too because you are looking at your loved and everyday and there life's just getting sucked away when there not even given a chance to even beat cancer that's why I'm struggling too 

thankyou for your kind words and replies 

hope you find things a little better in time, I so hope I do because i feel like cancer taken a piece of me too it's the ripple effect that cancer leaves behind 

hugs to you too