Hi Paul, welcome to the forum. All of us on here understand your feelings of anger about this disease, expeically when it hits a child. I have seen little kids so sick with cancer that I just cry my eyes out when I'm by myself afterward. They are so innocent and I'll be honest here, I really question what lesson we are supposed to be learning when a child gets cancer, or any other serious illness or affliction.

I have cancer myself and have lost many loved ones to this terrible disease, but my sickness could never equate to the serious illness of a child. You ask what can you do to help deal with the anger you feel over this. Turning your anger into something productive rather than destructive is a good starting point. There are agencies, organizations that have programs  dealing with children where people can help contribute to a cause to alleviate some of the suffering of kids with cancer. I don't know about where you are, but here in Canada where I am, we have an organization called the "Childrens' Wish Foundation" where a sick child can be granted a special wish, i.e. an all expense paid trip to Disneyland for that child's entire family for a week, or whatever the child's medical team would approve of. The child gets to pick what wish they want and if at all possible, their wish is granted. It could be a visit to a special place, or have their bedroom at home completely renovated, or some item like a new TV etc. If you have one of these organizations where you are, you might want to contribute to it. It works very well here.

You can also donate to your local children's hospital or work with medical personnel to purchase an item for their children's wing that would benefit all of the children there. What you do doesn't have to cost money. If you want to volunteer your time to spend with a sick child who doesn't have a lot of visitors, you could do that, but of course, there would be a strict screening process to go through to do this. Of course, if you have the finances and want to donate to any children's charities, you could do that as well. The main thing is to put your anger aside, but then use the energy from it to do something good for the kids who are sick and can benefit from that energy.

Finally, in your last sentence, you say that you don't understand the reality of having cancer yourself. I do understand that reality and at times, it is a hard place to be. Young children don't have that level of understanding. They don't understand death, or what it means, but they certainly do feel the physical pain of having cancer, and the emotional pain of knowing they can't experience the activities that other children enjoy every day. It is so heartbreaking to watch a child go through this and be so helpless to do anything about it. Consider what it must be like for medical personnel experience when they work tirelessly, day after day, with kids sick with cancer. There's also another experience about cancer that children have and that is watching a parent or another loved one suffer through a cancer disease, and sometimes the loss through death of that person from their lives.     

There are many ways people can help, not necessarily with money, but I'm sure you know the screening that takes place for anyone who wants to work with children. You do though, need to deal with your anger however, because there is no place for anger when dealing with kids. Perhaps get some help to do that first.

I hope this helps give you some guidance in trying to help. I know your heart is in the right place.

Take care 

Lorraine