gutted - don't know what more to say.

Hi all,

I am writing because I need an outlet.  I feel like all other outlets have been exhausted, even though my dad's diagnosis was only 2 months ago.  Maybe people don't know what to say, I don't know.  I feel very lonely.  I miss my dad.

It was a very quick but distressing passing.  He contracted pneumonia and within a week he had died,  I know that this was probably better for him, but I feel like my time with him was robbed as he was given 3-18 months.

I'm really cautious that others on here are suffering with cancer and I honestly do not want to cause any further worry to them, but I don't know where to turn.

I am so sad....

 

  • Hi Lamchop, so sad to hear of your loss. You must take comfort from the fact your Dad really enjoyed his time with you and remain positive. I was lucky and had three and a bit years after my partner was diagnosed but it wasn't easier at the end even though we were able to make lots of plans. I still miss her and think of her every single day and I alwYs will. She used to say to me "let's make lots of good memories for you" and I have all these memories and others, which will always be with me. I first posted on here only a couple of weeks ago as I guess I'm going through the same emotions as you are right now and someone replied " it's not about forgetting Jo or that time will heal the pain it's more about learning to live with your loss" you have all these memories of your lovely childhood with your precious Dad that you made together, rejoice in the fact you were able to spend your lifetime together being happy and the sadness will dwindle, I can't promise it'll go away but when you're sad you will quickly remember those amazing happy times and even smile . This is what I do, it can be difficult especially when it's so raw but Jo made me so very happy I know she wouldn't want me to be sad.

  • Hi there, 

    I'm so so sorry to hear about your dad - it's a very upsetting time. Everything has happened quickly and it's so unfair. 

    My dad got diagnosed with cancer in March. A week later we found out that it had spread. On May 16th we got told that it was terminal. On May 19th he passed away. All this happened within 9 weeks - he had been suffering with stomach pains since December but up until March we got told it was IBS. 

    I know how it feels to feel lonely but please remember you're not! Do you have any other family around who you can talk to? 

    I cry almost every single day since the passing of my dad. It still doesn't feel real, even though it's been almost 6 weeks. I unfortunately cannot say how long grief lasts for, but it's totally normal to feel the emotions you're feeling and you are certainly not alone. I'm here if you want someone to talk to. 

    Georgia x 

  • as someone with cancer, may i say such posst are in no way 'disturbing'. i for one hope that anyone who might feel my loss, should be be reasonably early, might find a place to vent, express, talk, engage or just be heard. xxx