Hi Jules, glad you had a nice time with your family and you got to do the things you had planned  , i went out with my friend  on Saturday to a local community centre for a cream tea, i even won a bottle of wine on the raffle,we had some lovely sandwiches and a assortment of cakes.Went out with my daughter on Sunday just to a local pub  for dinner ,weather not to good again but have managed to take george out this afternoon,have been upset  again this weekend , if  i feel like this at weekend they have a counsellor  on a Saturday morning  in a church in my local town  so i will call in just to have a talk i have been before and it does help.hope you enjoyed your coach trip wher did you go? And you had a nice lunch with your friend,my son has just rung me he is having a nice time im Mexico even though they have had some rain they have spent  a lot of time in the pool with the kids enjoy your week  regards Syl x

Hi Syl,

Back at work this week and the time just seems to be slipping by.

Glad you enjoyed time with your friend on Saturday and also dinner with your daughter.  I think it is when we return from the 'good times' that we sit alone and reflect on what might have been  and this is when I now try and save my housework for.  My way of coping I guess. The counsellor at  your chuch on a Saturday morning sounds like a nice place to drop in for a chat if you need to discuss things.  I do think it helps somewhat to discuss your feelings and perhaps gain some understanding into the grieving journey.  It is cerntainly and  up and down time that's for sure. 

The coach trip did not go too bad thank you.  Weather was a bit gloomy but I had a good look around the cathedral (I was in Gloucester) and the historic dock area plus a stroll around the 'Quays'which is a cut price designer retail outlets centre.  Managed to get myself some decent work shoes and also a gift for my sister in law who turns 70 at the beginning of next month.  Lunch the following day with my daughter in law's Mum was also lovely and we went to our favourite garden centre so some shopping therapy as well.  I now have two new plants and some bulb fibre ready for planting  up my pots.

Child-minding for my daughter tomorrow as youngest grandson has hospital hearing test appointment.  No doubt I will be playing board games with the elder lad to pass the time.  Seeing my son and family on Saturday but the rest of the weekend have no plans for other than my usual gym session/walks.

Take care and have a pleasant and peaceful weekend.  Jules xx

Hi Jules , glad you enjoyed your trip out with your friend even though weather  was a bit  gloomy  its ni e to have a wander round garden centres and retail outlets you can pick up some   good bargains  .hope you  have a nice time playing with your grandson ,i wish i had grandchildren i hear that many people say thay keep you young and active . have been to my exercise class again only got to more to go  then they move you on to somewhere else,havnt got  anything planned for the weekend my daughter and her partner have fell out so might go somewhere  with her , i am going to the crem bank holiday monday  to put flowers on my mums  plot as she has been dead 19 years some times it only seems like yesterday. got to go into town tomorrow  as i have a eye test due will have a wonder round the shops , then go into one of the many cafe s  and treat my self to a  capachino  no cake though as im fat enough lol  enjoy the bank holiday regards Syl x

Im sorry for your loss. Xxxx t's sad but once you've gotten over you it you will find that life is so much easier when you try less hard to forget because if you forget you will feel more alone so I suggest you keep your husband in your heart forever and consider him still alive somewhere and your stress will go away Hope you have a good life from this day forward

Hi Jules, sounds as if you had a nice time with your granchildren  i think doing things with them must fetch back memories of when you were young it would me.  my eye test went ok my sister has to put eye drops  in her eyes every day to stop  glucoma from  developing she  sees the specialist twice a year. my daughter and her partner have not  got back together yet, they go away next weekend  to lanzarote  so they will have to come together at some point  or they will lose there holiday,i had a nice week end with herhome we went to a place called Dunham Massey its a big estate  with deer wondering about  and a stately home then we had sunday lunch in a country pub. Onthe monday we went to a garden centre its quite big and it sells all different things ,after a good walk round in which we never bought anything we had a meal in our local pub so it was a nice week end.i am out with the kids my sister and her partner on friday at a local restaurant as it is my Birthday,on the saturday it is my neighbors 30 wedding anniverary so have been invited to a barbecue at least this weekend is busy with nice things.hope your 40th passes peacefully its hard when  these things arise as all we have are memories  to think back on  enjoy your weekend  hope to take george out before my exercise class regards Syl x

Hi Syl

A belated happy birthday and hope you had a lovely meal with the family on Friday and also enjoyed your neighbours' anniversary BBQ.  It was lovely here both days so hopefully the same where you are.

I spent Friday in London with a friend visiting Lambeth Palace Gardens (open for charity) and then walked along the South Bank and enjoyed lunch and a coffee stop along the way.  Lovely views overlooking the Thames.  Weather permitting I hope to return this coming Friday as there is a Chinese Street Food Festival on near Tower Bridge.

The weekend was generally quiet apart from usual gym visits and chatting with my inlaws.  I did however go out to lunch (spur of the moment arrangement) with a lady I see at the gym who was also kind enough to give me a lift to the crematorium (she did not want me to get wet).  We ended up chatting over coffee and a toastie for over 2hrs before coming back home.  It was a rather nostalgic kind of day but lovely memories to ponder upon.

My son and family are on holiday this week and my daughter's boys were back to school today so treated to updated pictures via Facebook.

Today I have managed to renew my passport online in readiness for my holiday next year and also had lunch locally with another friend made at the gym. Tomorrow will visit Mum and the gym so some sort of routine.

Thankfully the weather enabled me to plant nearly all the bulbs I had bought and now they are being 'watered in'.

Have a peaceful and pleasant week and weather permitting maybe a walk with the lucky George.

Take care.  Jules x

HiJules, i had a nice week end enjoyed my meal with the family on Friday and the BBQ on the Saturday luckily the weather was ok so we were all sat outside in the garden with plenty of lovely food and  beer and all differant types of gin which all went down  very well.glad you enjoyed your day in London its a long time since i was in the capital, my son is working in London again  not far from st Pauls he is there for a good few weeks yet.it was a lovely gesture of the lady to give you a lift to the crem  wish there was more people like that in the world it would be a better place . my evening aerobics has started back now and my Thursday one tomorrow, at least i have that to look forward to ,also my friendship group starts back Monday so every thingback to normal now. the weather not been to good here managed to take george out  today but only a couple of times this week because of the weather.i havnt got much planned for the weekend  might go out with my son and his partners kids on Sunday to a local park as there is something on, but the forecast isnt very good , so will have to wait and see. have a lovely week end regards Syl x

Hi Syl

Hope you had a good weekend though I must say the weather here was somewhat mixed.  Despite the showers on Friday I followed my gym visit with a three mile walk.  Was heading for the garden centre but when the heavy rain came along I diverted to walk through the local woods to the cafe at the  lido.  After a cuppa I continued my walk around the Lido complete with brolly and then went to the garden centre as planned. Bought the couple of bits I wanted (it was cardholders 20% off day) and then caught the bus back. Saturday was much better so I spent most of the day gardening and at least the back garden is probably ready for the autumn now and at least all my bulbs are in. 

My daughter, son in law and the boys visited for a few hours on Sunday and it always nice to have a catch up.

Have been to visit Mum this morning as have friends coming tomorrow.  Was a bit taken aback to find her room emptied but soon learnt that she had been moved temporarily to let some work be carried out.  Bless her she was not bothered at all and had just finished her breakfast as usual.  I got a hello before she nodded off so I sat with my book for a while.  These visits are all very much alike now.

Despite the showery weather at least the temperatures are still not too bad.  Hope you enjoy being back to your usual routine and nice that you can look forward to your friendship groups again.  Have a pleasant week and take care of yourself.  Jules xx

I lost my wife in April, she had cancer 4 times and fought it bravely if I simply give up now, she would be angry, it keeps me going. Although not fun more existing but I can't and wouldn't let her down. Hope it helps you find a way? Andrew