Chris C,

Please don't be sorry for being sad, you are going through the most horrendous loss of your lovely husband, I know how sad you feel, I feel the same, my beautiful husband passed away in October and I miss him so so much some days it is unbearable.   It is really early days for you and the pain is so raw.  Keep coming on here to share your feelings, you will get lots of support from people who are going through the same.  Hugs to you. Debbie xxxxxx

Hi Chris,

Please you have no need to apologise to say sorry to anyone on here. Far better to come on this friendly forum and talk with others who will fully understand how you feel and not to bottle your emotions up for that wont help.

Between mine and my wifes family I have lost ten relatives to cancer over the years so you wont get any arguments about cancer being cruel from me. Plus I have had a brush with cancer myself.

Sending best wishes and kind thoughts your way, Brian.

Hi Debbie 

Thanks for your support and you are right the feelings are very raw I think the only reason i've got this far is my daughter and grand children. My grandson says his grandad is the big star up in the sky and is keeping his eye on us I hope he is.  I thought I was ready for his passing having a few months after we had the news his cancer was terminal to get ready but I dont think you are ever ready. I am so sorry for your loss and hope your pain is becoming more bearable they do say the good ones go too early never though my good one would go this early.  Thanks again  Chris xxxx 

Hi Chris

I see that many of our forum friends have already been long to offer support.  I do not think it matters whether you are aware that the cancer is terminal or not (my hubby had a terminal diagnosis and we had nearly three years before he passed away), it still leaves a huge void when it happens and the early days/weeks/months can be so very difficult and I wondered how it was possible to feel alone even though had family/friends supporting me. I am further forward than the lovely Deben and CG (hubby taken in early January 2015) but in the early days needed a period of adjustment/acceptance/grief to wash over me before taking tentative steps to move forward, whilst also supporting my two adult children and grandchildren (as they in turn supported me).   Emotions rise and rall, there are still dodgy days but I cope by remembering the good times, knowing that he is free of pain now and hoping to do his memory proud.  The forum is hear when you need to share (Brian was an early respondee to me too when I joined the forum during my husband's journey and I will be forever thankful that I found this place to be 'just me').  Sending a virtual hug at this very raw time of grief and loss.  Jules