My mum has been batting cancer for 5 years and over the last week her health really declined and she passed away suddenly on Tuesday night. I'm 20 and my brothers 17 and its come as a huge shock to us and I'm finding it difficult. I think for a second that's she at work and then I suddenly remember she's not coming back. I can't help thinking about all the things that's she going to miss out on now and all the the big things I'm not going to have my mum around for(such as my graduationn from uni) my dad is struggling a lot and is making silly rational decisions like selling the house, he says he feels useless and we don't want him. I know that these are probably normal reactions but the last couple of days have been the worst and really painful.