Hi Georgie, you're not selfish. It's so hard. I searched the Internet just now for some words to help me too as in same boat as you. My dad passed away 3 weeks ago and I miss him so much it hurts. It doesn't feel real, feel like he will turn up anytime soon. It must have been such a shock for you how it happened. Mine was a little different in tjat dad was diagnosed nearly 2 years ago with a very aggressive cancer. It's been so terribly hard over this time for him and our whole family. One little blessing for you is that you were spared from knowing this, sometimes ignorance is bliss. Try to take a little comfort in fact he and all of you didn't know and could enjoy the past few years which could have been more upsetting if you had. Big hugs xxx

Hi georgie50 and kazzij

Sorry for the loss of your dads.

I hope you will be able to support eachother through this difficult time.

Best wishes to you both,

Jane

Hi kajjik thankyou for your words of comfort and I hope you are also ok you are going through same thing so I feel for you so much things are ok I have bad days and still in denial really I keep looking at my gate hoping he will walk in but I now accept that's not going to happen my mum still struggling which I find hard trying to support her they had been together 64 years it helps to talk to people who really know how you feel it's so unreal best wishes georgie