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Why won't my body let me cry?

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My dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer 8 years ago, and it has now been 8 days since my dad passed away from cancer and related complications. He was ill for about 4 months prior to his passing and had two major operations in this time that prolonged his life by a month or two.  The last 4 weeks where horrific, watching him deteriorate, feeling his heart break that he was soon to leave us and there was nothing that he could do to stop it.

I have cried for months with dad, with family, in the shower, everywhere, But I haven't shed a tear for about 5 days, I just feel numb and kind of lost, and don't know what to do with myself. Months of worrying about him, sitting by his bedside and now it's all over. I want him back so badly and I know that is a normal feeling but this lost numb feeling seems strange. Why won't my body let me cry?    

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    Hi Lost

    So many of us here understand your feeling of numbness, loss and the inability to be able to cry when you would expect to be doing so. For me (and it was last year now) it was like I had shed so many tears during my hubby's illness I was totally drained and seemed to be on a kind of autopilot as I faced each new day.  You honestly do not need to be crying as grief is just as emotional when you are dry eyed but I suspect there will come a point when  something will trigger your mind and you will shed tears or even smile at a memory.  Just now you are raw and numb with loss. Look after yourself and come and chat whenever  you need to.  Sometimes it just helps to talk through feelings. Jules54 

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    Hi Lost

    So many of us here understand your feeling of numbness, loss and the inability to be able to cry when you would expect to be doing so. For me (and it was last year now) it was like I had shed so many tears during my hubby's illness I was totally drained and seemed to be on a kind of autopilot as I faced each new day.  You honestly do not need to be crying as grief is just as emotional when you are dry eyed but I suspect there will come a point when  something will trigger your mind and you will shed tears or even smile at a memory.  Just now you are raw and numb with loss. Look after yourself and come and chat whenever  you need to.  Sometimes it just helps to talk through feelings. Jules54 

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