I feel i cant go a day without getting upset. I was their favorite grandchild we went on holliday almost every weekend to blackpool and they would spoil me, take mw to the fair, the beach and breakfast in the morning. Then bingo at night :) i just wish i could bring them back, ive never felt such pain especially watching my grandad get depressed and suffer without my grandma to the point he became ill and cancer took him away, i just wish i could be happy again. I know im doing them proud i really know i am but i want them to hold me just one more time, let myself be ready :(