hi   everyone .. my lovely dad passed a month ago from a long battle of lung cancer .. after 4 years he ended up getting cancer everywhere in the end it got in his head..

im struggling with lots of things firstly that we couldnt give his wish to die at home .. we tried but one night he ended up in hospital they didnt feel he was ill enough for the hospice so put him in a care home , even though we didnt want that.. He was looked after poorly in the care home where after a few days he ended up back in hospital where we begged for the hospice.. he finally got his hospice bed and died a few days later.. I cant help feeling guilty that we didnt do our best for him .. i miss him so much it hurts so bad and just feel he was so sad in those last days cus of the situation.. Its been hard x