I lost my mum 5 months ago to cancer and finding it very difficult to cope, I don't no what type to honest that t took her at 1st it was in the womb an went through a major operation to have everything removed then radiotherapy therapy that damaged her bladder so ended up with a bag she then went through another operation so it could be fitted better after that she ended up with it in her stomach chemotherapy damaged the bowel so another bag was fitted my mum was wasting away eventually with not been able to eat much could not get out of bed she eventually went into hospital where I was told that was it she only had weeks left so was put home a hospital bed was all set up for her Marie Curie nurses where in everyday & near the end where there through the night she eventually died in her sleep, not  once did she complain after  everything she went through it doesn't feel right still grieving as she went through so much but the grieving seems to be getting worse which doesn't fee right after all the pain & suffering my mum went through i don't no what to do.