It's been 7 weeks since my dad passed away. He only found out in October and was gone by December.. Everything happened so quick and there were no signs before diagnosis. I was so close to him he was my best friend and I just feel so alone without him. I live in Ireland & he lived in Scotland but we spoke every day and now I'm lost & feeling so alone. I have a 3 year old son who keeps asking about him and it kills me but I refuse to let him se me upset abd I hold everything in infornt of people then i explode on my own. I also found out 2 weeks ago that I am 3 months pregnant which was a massive shock & I just don't know where my head is?? I am happy to have another addition to my family but it absolutly breaks my heart that my dad won't be here for that. I feel like my heart has been torn in 2 and that my head hurts all the time. I am constantly being asked how is wife is and other family members are and feel like I have to check with everyone else and that everyone assumes I will just get on with it. I really don't know how to get on with general day to day and begin to enjoy life again because I know that's what he would want me to do. It's so hard.