My wife was diagnosed with peritoneal cancer in Oct2014 and after struggling with bowel blockages and  having chemo was told that she was clear last July - Aug. She then had respiratory problems, non cancer related,  and had a ct scan t,his was seen by the oncologist  at a follow up who then told us the cancer had returned. Although chemo was started my wife became worse and eventually on christmas eve was admitted to our local wonderful hospice. With no surgery or chemo available and her bowels again blocked she  was given "  short weeks". She has battled on and improved in that her bowels started to work again and managed to celebrate her birthday on the 24th Jan but the future is certain but the timing is not. I am 66, my wife now 63 with 3 grown up children ( late 20s) with their own lives. This time where we all visit daily waiting for the inevitable is one of the hardest things I have ever done. We deal with it day to day as although she is visibly getting weaker and weaker there are good days when we can have conversations and interaction  and days when we are just there holding  her hand.

As I  said this is the hardest time and although I have good friends who try to support it can be very lonely and worrying for the future.