Hi, I just commented on your other post to see how you was doing. 2 months in is still so early in the process. Do you have any support around you that you can talk to. Bit by bit as you answer those questions that keep going around in your mind you will move on a big further. You might have questions you can't answer also. You're not talking rubbish at all. When you've been in those shoes you truly understand. Have you thought about asking Macmillan if you can see one of their counsellors? 

Hi, when my mum died 20 years ago I never realised I was going to feel such terrible pain.my children at the time were 13, 15 and 24 and I effectively left them to their own devices.  I lay on the sofa for 3 months hoping I wouldnt wake up, the curtains were drawn and I wasnt eating.  I knew I was depressed but I didnt want to do anything about it.  I don't know what the turning point was, but one mirning I got up, bathed, dressed got my childrens breakfast and looked for a new job.  missing her has got easier, but never gone away, I hold her dear all the time.

Grief is hard and we must let it run its course, however long that may be.  Don't

 be strong, cry when you want, be angry and let your feelings out!

Ah, life can sometimes be horrible. My Dad passed away four years ago this March - he was a beautiful, kind and gentle man. I loved him so very much as you did your Daddy. Have you any body with whom you can speak? Thinking of you and sending hugs your way. X 

Hi, I know how you feel. My mum died 3 months ago. I lived with her and miss her lots. The pain lessened but feel I may need to see the doctor as feel a bit depressed. I have loads of thoughts about mum. Im waiting to see a counsellor.

I understand totally - I thought at the beginning I was ok - I had a funeral to organise, probate, flat clearace - but now that is done and I have time on my hands - I don't know what to do with myself as this was time that I gave to looking after Mum - I feel a fraud using this time for myself as I don't want to .... this was her time and I don't want it back.  

It's such a strange feeling .... people are with you at the death and the funeral but although you don't realise it - that's the easy stage - it's afterwards that you need those people - when the registrars, the funeral directors, the crematorium, probate have done their jobs - that's when it hits home ... that's when you want your phone to ring - when you want an email saying lets meet up .....