my lovely dad passed away 11 days ago on 3rd of December... even though he was diagnosed 2 years ago with prostate cancer which had spread into his bones he had responded well to treatment... in a very short space of six weeks his cancer took his health completely and his life... how do you cope?? im struggling massively.. friends i thought would be there just aren't.. it should bring me and my brothers and sister closer but it hasn't.. the grief is overwhelming.. im struggling to hold it together at work.. dads funeral is this Friday... Christmas is something im selfishly resenting ... everyone so happy when i just want to scream and cry!!!! then i feel bad as dad even at the very end tried to smile.. watching him waste away was awful..
