Hello everyone, not sure whether anyone has seen any of my previous posts but I lost my Dad (who would've been 48 in July) in May this year from Bowel & Lung cancer which eventually spread everywhere around his body. I am nearly 19 and live at our house with my older sister who is 22, I'm having a really *** time recently I have a job and am getting through day to day life by the skin of my teeth. It seems that I can go for days sometimes weeks and I feel okayish, then suddenly without any trigger I am suddenly overwhelmed with sadness and it ruins my whole day, I am unable to work, speak even function, on these days I mainly sleep off my sadness or i'll sit and cry for hours. I know I can accept the fact that my dad is no longer with me but being able to function without him I'm struggling with, I'm not sure whether any of this makes any sense but I don't know what else to do. I'm not really one for sitting down and talking about my feelings so this is a big step for me.