Hello, I lost my dad last month, he had a brain tumour, it all happened so fast I still can't get my head around it, I'm 26 years old and just at an age where I'm starting to understand my parents, I now get everything they did for us in life and I appreciate it a lot more, I have 2 brothers and 1 sister, my elder brother got married this year in June, and even though my dad was ill at the time he was still there and was awake for most of the day, I used to get so excited about the next stages in my life, like when I would get married and he would walk me down the aisle, or when I have kids, I knew my dad would make the best grandad in the world, he lived for us, I think the thing that's cutting me up the most everyday is that he won't ever meet my children and he won't ever walk me down the aisle, I get so upset looking at my mum as well, they are both only 51 and they have been with each other since the age of 17, they had just got to a point in their lives where we where all old enough to take care of ourselves, and they can enjoy dates again, and get back to each other and enjoy grandchildren and holidays, but now he's been ripped from our lives in 16 months, since he was diagnosed I just always believed he would beat it, I never had a doubt he was the strongest man I knew, and now everything's changed, I'm still waiting for him to come home, or to walk in and see him sat in his spot on the couch, I don't really know how to handle how I'm feeling, I am ok when I am with people or around my family, but I can't sleep anymore, and it often hits me like a steam train that he isn't coming back, and I break down where ever I am, I feel like it's never going to get any easier , and I feel like everyone is just carrying on with life, and he is being forgotten, what happens next?
