All I want to say is thank you for the replies I had on my post I appreciate them. It has made me realise that my thoughts are normal when you have lost someone and that coming to terms with the loss of my wife will be a roller coaster of a ride. I know I'm strong enough to deal with the grief guilt and upset I feel. It's nice to know that there are kind people on here who are going through the same as me and can prop each other up in hard and difficult times. Thank you once again
