I feel exactly the same!  cant believe myhusband isnt here.  He died of lung cancer a week ago a few weeks after the diagnosis.  he had COPD but we didnt know he had cancer though he had been losing weight and not eating much since before Christmas.  He kept saying he was dying on his feet but dont call the doctor as he hated the thought of ending up in hospital where he had been with pneumonia a year ago.  The last week at home was terrible and we finally got hospice care as I couldnt cope and then managed to get him admitted to the Hospice.   When he arrived there he became unconcious very quickly though I just managed to hear him whisper " please help me".  It was agonisng .  He wanted water but couldnt swallow.   He was unconscious for 3 nights while I stayed there and then I went in to the garden for a few minutes to phone a friend and came back to sit by him and realised he had stopped breathing.  It was still a shock and I am devastated-- cant stop crying as soon as I am on my own.   We have no family but a good friend has stayed a few nights with me thank goodness. I am not very religious but wonder what on earth is the reason for all this suffering for people with cancer and their loved ones?

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Hi Rosmarin,

I am so very sorry for your loss.  Unfortunately I have no words of wisdom, my husband passed away in October.  All I can say is I know what you are going through, the loss is so painful, as is the loneliness  Keep coming on here, there are lots of lovely people who offer comfort and good advice.   

Take care 

Debbie xxxxxx

Hi Rosmarin,

I am so very sorry for your loss.  Unfortunately I have no words of wisdom, my husband passed away in October.  All I can say is I know what you are going through, the loss is so painful, as is the loneliness  Keep coming on here, there are lots of lovely people who offer comfort and good advice.   

Take care 

Debbie xxxxxx