My husband died in September 2014 - not of cancer but the loss is the same. I thought that the first Christmas would be terribel and it was OK but the second made me feel very alone - then I remembered one of his many sayings - If you are a moaner then you will be a loner - all very well but you have to take time to grieve and it takes a long time to adjust to your new life. I have joined a nationwide group called the Jolly Dollies - a group of widows who meet up to get out of the house. This group know about grief first hand so if you have a teary moment they understand and support you. We do lots of social things. Have a look on gooogle!!

My husband died in September 2014 - not of cancer but the loss is the same. I thought that the first Christmas would be terribel and it was OK but the second made me feel very alone - then I remembered one of his many sayings - If you are a moaner then you will be a loner - all very well but you have to take time to grieve and it takes a long time to adjust to your new life. I have joined a nationwide group called the Jolly Dollies - a group of widows who meet up to get out of the house. This group know about grief first hand so if you have a teary moment they understand and support you. We do lots of social things. Have a look on gooogle!!

Widow, I am sorry to hear your husband and thank you for your reply, I am getting a phobia about weekends - I hate them, I will Google Jolly Dollies  xxxxx

Hello Deben. I have been reading your posts and agree with everything you are saying and feeling. I lost my beautiful hubby in Aug, so it's almost 6mths and for every good day I seem to have two bad! I feel so lonely, yet I have good friends and family. I'm pleased in a way that you feel like you're gettind a phobia about weekends,cos that's exactly how I feel (thought I was going alittle crackers!!!)....I to hate them with a passion. Think I may google Jolly Dollies too. Sending you a big hug X

Thank you Peach, I too have good family and friends, no children so I live alone, the house is so quiet without him. Another strange thing is that I  feel I can't be away from home for to long as I get anxious feel as though I have to get back home to him.  Hugs to you xxxxxx

Hi my love......Ooh it's so true. I ventured into town the other day and couldn't get back quick enough. I feel like the only place I feel safe and close to him is at home. I talk to him all the time and talk about what I am watching on the television, which seems to be on all the time......can't stand the silence. I have two wonderful sons, but both live away in Newcastle and Bristol. My eldest son lives with his beautiful girlfriend and I wish they lived nearer, but they have their own lives to live. They phone most days and visit when they can, but it's just not the same anymore. I sometime think that he'll just come back into my life, but for now I just seem to be getting through one day at a time and living my life in my head...if that makes sense. X

Peach and cg It is very comforting to know you both feel like I do, peach I have the tv on all the time as I can't stand the silence.  Cg exactly I feel safe and close to sam at home.  Love to you both xxxxxx