Hi Leximillie

Condolences from all of us here for the loss of your husband.

You are not alone and there are many others using this friendly forum who are in a similar position and who feel as you do, that they are expected to carry on as normal.

For instance, there is a new discussion thread here which you may wish to join.

Please come and chat whenever you feel it is helpful. There is always someone here who will be able to offer you advice and support.

Best wishes

Jane

Thank you Jane for your kind words I am new to  this forum. Sometimes I don't know where to turn and find myself wandering about the house talking to him. He was such a jovial character I can't get out of my mind his last day he was so weak and hardly speaking. Even when he passed we were so shocked he had been in and out of hospital so many times we thought he was indestructible such a strong man. Someone said to me you have Christmas to look  forward to .I couldn't answer Peter loved Christmas having grandchildren round he always made best of things even when very ill.i can't find any inner strength to carry me on he wouldn't be happy with me I know. I have my grandchildren as much as I can which helps .