Hi Maria, welcome to the forum, but sorry for why you are here. I'm also very sorry for your loss. I get the feeling that a loved one has died from cancer, although you don't say what your relationship with this person was, or how they died. I assume he or she died with cancer. You've come to the right place though where people on here are very caring and supportive. When you feel up for it, write in again and tell us more about the person you lost and how you are coping. It does help to write your feelings down and to communicate with others who are going through the same thing.
Take care of yourself as you go through this difficult time.
So sorry for your loss. I understand how difficult it is to find a way to cope after being a carer full time. When caring for someone you are so busy, rushing round, shooting off to the shops to get them things and running backwards and forwards. The Sleepless nights, it's so exhausting. Then all a sudden when they go, it's awful. Everything just abruptly stops.
After its very difficult to adjust to a new life. Sometimes you just don't want to. Sometimes I feel like I just want everything to stop and let me grief. Unfortunately that doesn't happen.
My mum was diagnosed on the 1st May with cancer and passed away on the 14th July. It was awful, it all happened so quickly I didn't get a chance to accept the diagnosis let alone her death. In the middle of that I got married on the 12th June. I was rushing around all over the place. I was just so busy. Now everything has ended and finished, I feel so low.
We just have to keep going, it's the only way to cope. Try and keep yourself busy. Just keep going, there are so many people who have got through it. So we can too.
