I never thought I would find myself typing on one of these pages but I can't cope. I lost my mum less than a month ago and it hurts. She fought so hard for a year and she didn't want this to sculpt or change us. But I feel as I can't get out of bed some days. I'm sixteen and currently falling behind in every thing. I miss my mum so much it hurts. Not just mentally but physically my head aches. Everyone was so supportive the first week but now coming into the third week without my mum it seems everyone had moved on. I can't I need my mum. She was an inspiration to me and she taught me everything except how to live without her. My 2 sibling, dad and grandparents have all gone back to normal. Why can't I? School have stopped checking up on me all the time and it's like everything's gone back to normal. But for me normals my mum here laughing and living. I don't know how to act or feel please help? I can't even put into words how I feel and this doesn't even describe how it hurts. My mum was so happy and had so many friends. She eloped so many people with a range of things. She was a true little gem. So why her?? WHY did she have to die. There's so much I want to tell her, I just can't take it